I cannot BELIEVE I have completed ten weeks of this program! It is honestly mind-blowing. At the beginning of this journey, I remember feeling like the 80 days would never come. Now it feels like they are going by too fast. I made a comment to a friend last week that it kind feels like a summer camp that is coming to a close (she laughed, but it's true!). I will also miss the exclusive little group of 10 women that I am on this journey with. We can do this again, of course, but it won't be the same. However, I have been thinking about doing this again, though not as strictly... but that's a post for another week.
This past week was pretty intense. Sawyer was out of town and I theoretically should have had more free time to myself. Somehow, though, I had things going on after school most nights, so I had to do early morning workouts. I think I prefer the early AM workouts, though. I have much more energy throughout the day (which is great for teaching, particularly when I'm working with my elementary band students!) and then just have more time to myself in the afternoon & evening. Whatever program I do after these 80 days are up, I think I will keep my early morning routine going.
My nutrition was mostly on point this past week. There were times I "binged" (I'm putting these words in quotes... while I did literally binge, I don't feel any guilt or any other negative feeling associated with the word) but it was on foods that are a part of my plan (extra slices of sprouted multigrain bread, for example) and I truly think my body needed it. If I continue with timed nutrition & intense workouts, I think I may need to increase my caloric intake a bit. I'll have to crunch the numbers, but that is what feels right for my body.
Even after "overeating", my weight & body fat percentage has been steadily decreasing. It really is a great feeling, to know you're working hard and see results.
But every day is not all sunshine and rainbows. I mentioned body image issues in my Instagram post. Listen, I am LOVING my toned arms and baby abs and I worked hard to earn them. But no matter how hard I work, I will always have accessory axillary breast tissue (present in 2%-6% of women), unless I get surgery. They will decrease as my body fat percentage goes down, but diet and exercise alone cannot rid them. Those extra little lumps of fat have driven me crazy for years. They are what have made me question every tank top, dress, and bathing suit I have ever owned. Prom & wedding dress shopping were terrible - I overanalyzed every dress I tried on because of that armpit fat... "Should I go with this sleeveless dress? Or try something with sleeves that will cover these?"
I was certain that everyone stared at them. I still think people do. But my self-confidence has increased over my fitness journey and here is a big reason why - PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT. Yes, basically "self-help" books. I prefer to think of them as inspirational quotes in book form. Listening to audiobooks on personal development has been KEY in building up my confidence. My two favorites are:
Even though sometimes I have moments of self-doubt, I think about how far I have come. And that makes me smile and feel proud. If you ever see me wearing something sleeveless, you know: I am feeling like one badass lady. If you are dealing with body image issues (or maybe you have axillary breast tissue, too!), I hope that this post inspired you. I'd love to chat personal development books further, if you want more recommendations!
Three more weeks!